Change Negative for Positive

Transforming into a beauty from within,

Painstakingly rejected from the what I refused,

Now it hangs in the balance of the mask or the actual visionary of what people choose to see,

I am grabbed by the memories that flow around in my head,

Giving me a pass, to transport in time and hold down that once was feeling of normalcy,

Traumatic experience have left indentation on my skull,

Leaving feelings building on rage & anger, mindlessly wondering about trying to catch myself, feeling the blood pump between my vains,

Catching this unexpectedly, my heart is pumping overdrive trying to come to a skulking stop,

I’ve slowed to take my aggressive tension out on you, I refrain from yelling and screaming,

I’m quite proud, no one needs to say it this time,

Pulling myself from a dark hole, the black hole it seemed like, driven and transpired by endurance, & my inner will to take strength to know I’m meant to be someone worth while.

I’m here to help people, I went through 30 years of struggle and heart ache

Pain indescribable to the human curtly panel,

I’ve lived and learned,

hard lessons in life and have been in situations I didn’t know if today was the last,

abuse ain’t no joke!

Not taken lightly,

𝓑𝓾𝓲𝓵𝓭𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓻𝓪𝓰𝓮 𝓯𝓻𝓸𝓶 𝓵𝓸𝓿𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓵𝓸𝓸𝓪𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓶𝔂 𝓱𝓮𝓪𝓻𝓽

𝘐𝘮 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘵𝘧𝘦𝘭𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘴𝘦 𝘵𝘺𝘱𝘦𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘴𝘪𝘵𝘶𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘴, 𝘊𝘩𝘪𝘭𝘥𝘳𝘦𝘯 𝘥𝘦𝘴𝘦𝘳𝘷𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘵𝘳e𝘢𝘴𝘶𝘳𝘦𝘥, 𝘱𝘳𝘰𝘵𝘦𝘤𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘸𝘯 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘱𝘦𝘤𝘵.

𝓟𝓾𝓻𝓮 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓷𝓸𝓽 𝓬𝓪𝓹𝓪𝓫𝓵𝓮 𝓸𝓯 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝔀𝓲𝓬𝓴𝓮𝓭 𝓮𝓶𝓫𝓮𝓭𝓭𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓲𝓽𝓼 𝓬𝓾𝓻𝓼𝓮 𝓸𝓷 𝓹𝓸𝓸𝓻 𝓬𝓱𝓲𝓵𝓭𝓻𝓮𝓷,

𝐓𝐨𝐝𝐚𝐲 𝐬𝐨𝐜𝐢𝐞𝐭𝐲 𝐢𝐬 𝐟𝐮𝐥𝐥 𝐨𝐟 𝐜𝐫𝐨𝐨𝐤𝐞𝐝 𝐚𝐬𝐬 𝐩𝐞𝐨𝐩𝐥𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐬𝐚𝐲 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐲 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐰𝐲 𝐝𝐨𝐧𝐭 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐦𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐯𝐞𝐬 𝐞𝐧𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡 𝐭𝐨 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐢𝐬, 𝐓𝐨 𝐛𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐝 𝐛𝐲 𝐥𝐢𝐞𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐦𝐚𝐧𝐢𝐩𝐮𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧, 𝐜𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐥𝐲 𝐬𝐞𝐞𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐛𝐢𝐠𝐠𝐞𝐫 𝐩𝐢𝐜𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐦𝐲 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐫𝐝 𝐞𝐲𝐞 𝐢𝐬 𝐰𝐢𝐝𝐞 𝐨𝐩𝐞𝐧,

𝐃𝐞𝐜𝐞𝐩𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐬𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝𝐬 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐚𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐚 , 𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐜𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐩𝐨𝐬𝐢𝐭𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐫𝐞𝐢𝐧𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐰𝐮𝐦𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮, 𝐚𝐥𝐰𝐚𝐲𝐬 𝐞𝐱𝐩𝐞𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐤𝐞𝐞𝐩 𝐩𝐮𝐭𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐮𝐩 𝐰𝐨𝐭𝐡 𝐬𝐮𝐜𝐡 𝐢𝐠𝐧𝐨𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞,

𝐘𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐥𝐢𝐞𝐬 𝐜𝐮𝐭 𝐠𝐥𝐚𝐬𝐬 𝐜𝐚𝐮𝐬𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐠𝐥𝐚𝐬𝐬 𝐭𝐨 𝐬𝐡𝐚𝐝𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐧𝐞𝐭 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐦𝐢𝐫𝐫𝐨𝐫, 𝐠𝐢𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐬𝐮𝐜𝐡 𝐞𝐧𝐣𝐨𝐲𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐡𝐚𝐝𝐝𝐞𝐫,

𝚈𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚑𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚝 𝚏𝚎𝚎𝚕𝚜, 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚝𝚘𝚞𝚗𝚐𝚎 𝚜𝚙𝚎𝚊𝚔𝚜 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚝𝚛𝚞𝚝𝚑, 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚍𝚎𝚌𝚎𝚙𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗 𝚒𝚜 𝚎𝚡𝚒𝚕𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚠𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚔 𝚒𝚖 𝚏𝚎𝚎𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚐,

𝙻𝚒𝚋𝚎𝚛𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚍, 𝚎𝚜𝚌𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚍, 𝚖𝚊𝚗𝚒𝚏𝚒𝚎𝚍, & 𝚊𝚖𝚙𝚒𝚕𝚒𝚏𝚒𝚎𝚍, 𝚋𝚢 𝚖𝚢 𝚌𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚕𝚒𝚝𝚢 𝚝𝚘 𝚜𝚎𝚎𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚒𝚗𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎, 𝚜𝚛𝚎𝚙𝚙𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚋𝚊𝚌𝚔 𝚝𝚘 𝚌𝚘𝚗𝚜𝚞𝚖𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚘𝚋𝚟𝚒𝚘𝚞𝚜,

𝙳𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚛𝚎 𝚠𝚊𝚜𝚗𝚝 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎,

𝙷𝚘𝚙𝚎, 𝚊𝚖𝚒𝚛𝚘𝚊𝚌𝚒𝚝𝚢 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚜𝚝𝚛𝚘𝚗𝚐 𝚍𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚒𝚌𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗 𝚝𝚘 𝚊𝚌𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚜 𝚊𝚌𝚌𝚚𝚞𝚒𝚛𝚎𝚍 𝚊𝚌𝚝𝚞𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚢 𝚙𝚛𝚘𝚟𝚒𝚗𝚐. 𝚈𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚝𝚑,

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