Change Negative for Positive

I’m appalled what takes on in this real estate

I derailed my constant thinking of nothing but negative thoughts,

Only leaving me mind boggled to such

Immoral actions on the down front,

You were my wishes, i was so glad to have found such a person,

I wondered how it could be so true,

Manipulative,

self motivated,

self centered actions you took upon for yourself,

Left me feeling as if i wasn’t anywhere as good as i actually am to you,

Let down on daily occurrences,

Told false accords on many accounts,

Only to have it all the way you wanted,

Wishes and grants are a humans way to express,

Allow us to feel a sense of hope,

A enteral system,

Im on the balance beam,

Weighting out,

The black to the white,

Like segregation takes place,

Never demanding on such accountability,

The Forefront to this madness needs to take leave,

Courting my devoted self,

Only to cause heart ache in my return, a hand for a hand.

Back bend piling on my creeping space

For which i stand in unity,

Along side My royal court, standing courted and left undoubtedly speechless

Ive made peace with my past resistance,

Only leaving me standing stronger then ever before,

Ive allowed you to leave me standing hopeless and lonely acting like you were my knight,

Only to have found out later,

The whole time youve been the snake in the grass,

You’ve lied to my family,

You’ve manipulated my parents,

Your the cause to me loosing my family,

It wasn’t much and you just had to bring me

My worse kind of enemy,

I don’t trust anymore,

My silence isn’t my weakness,

Finding out that i was a puppet only

For your pleasing,

You want control?

Yet you’ve now push me half across the map,

Honestly, loyal and trust are all i ask of you,

All these things you keep on doing,

“Sorry” doesn’t mean what it should mean anymore,

The meaning degraded for the sake,

Capturing higher then average dreams,

Allowing them to take height,

Narcissistic is what that would be,

Make it out to be one way,

turn it around & blame me,

You have no fault to call your own,

While I’m standing it wont happen

Im strong mentally,

emotionally & psychological &

physically Capable of defending my own rights,

manifesting my great works with my creativity.

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