Change Negative for Positive

Costing between storms, Creating right beneath my existence, Rumbling, Taking emotional rage bottling up, Leaving me Explosive in a mentally unstable manner, Unhinged by the blissful delight “Why must in’ I feel such a disguise”?? Enjoying creative Zen, Backlashing, Self Harm, Taking on full gear, Humanity takes on hyper drive, Driving head on, lights to lights, Revenge Creeping away in, Battling, Passions vs Desires Contemplating the “the fuck” Moments, Cultivating convictions, Reliance & self deterrent, Only trying to substance moral Serenity, For MY GROWING SELF; Bursting into a monstrosity; Ft.- Of vomit clusters pertaining, my surrounding clutter of boated, Dreaming, Of the Now & the foreseeing, More potential then mental, My outlet, Ones soul is to soothing, moderation, To mediation, Requiring will-power, Endurance, With the I can & I will, ADDITUDE; Divided by life’s perspective, Our human eye only chooses to see, As it chosen to be seen, Resistance, Only causes Tension, Doubt leads to, unworthiness, Not being known, Draw me near my dear, For my foreshadowing; Pondering, Underneath, This armor shell Carrying my whole demeanor, As if it was a backpack, Taking on challenges, That leave me only questioning, To what degree did I allow my standards? Morals even?, To be blinded, Such foolery, Controls on persona of one, Do I matter at all? Not to this given family, As I stood there, Climbing, The self hatred spectrum, Denied, Any & all allegations, To both parties, Blinded to what’s chooses to be seen; Addiction; Devil finest work, Lurking, Coping & balancing inner Most feelings, Screaming, Making it all just disappear, Yearning, Minding my inner beast, Transforming a new profound logic, Taking heed, Like a host, Targeting sudden motives, Relying on self reliance, Doubting whereabouts, See From the devil, Lingering, Watching self harm get disjointed, From the seems in between, Illustrates who, or what could become High strung, Within ourselves allows our righteousness to remain in tacked, Judgement day will make way, The willingness to progress in a meaningful life, Overly consumed, By littles child play, With standings that withdraw from the lurking devil, His playground, A high hot mess, Learning all new thing, Self care, Resistance & determination Takes my soul, To all new heights Exposing my real, Being of my true spirit, That lies within the walls of the host I’m hosting, As I stand in the valley, Lost for words for the tragedy, All taking place, Beguiled, Self enlightenment, Profound, By early father’s, Vigorous, The demise, That follows with self inflicted pain, With the battle of mental welfare, Disapproving, Of set emotions, Rising from the depth’s of my inner soul, Delaying the objective, Stay straight and narrow, Cross your “I”s and dot your “t”s Inner turmoil, Desperately nurturing tendencies, My living heart, Boosted, All for loyalty, I’ve been wondering, Clearing, Making way passed demons, Trying to surface, Him lurking down my spine, Demanding power, over an addiction, Betraying his brother, Going against all odds, All for the fallen angel, I stand, & Rest my case! Dem or ns chase my darkest Desires, Crumbling, Shaking, Self enlightenment, Doubting the Bloodline, Recoiling self doubt, Drawing away, From what I said, “My darkest hour” Rendering my weakness, Demons try creeping, Dreams from past childhood Come flooding in, Like a flash wave, Washing up on shore, Shells, Sand, Crashing into the seas, Paving way to, Shoreline, Manifesting, Greatest is a frame, Carving the destiny, Bestowed Envisioning, Brighter illustration, Madness, Casting ballets, Overthrowing royal, Capacitance.