Change Negative for Positive

Growing up I was a very anxious person and couldn’t mess anything, I was very interested in anything and everything my father did. Even my mother would tell me to stop cause I would be into everything. I never wanted to miss a beat now days the only thing that keeps my anxious is fighting it’s like I always ready, so when I know I’m in a heated argument I get real real anxious. In my opinion I feel like I get anxious because I was always so scared to fight, now it seems like that’s all I ever do anymore with life, with the situations, people, environmental circumstances and the situations I’ve been through aren’t always the best. And most of all most my situations I learned from hit I’ve felt like insanity a few time ; repeatition of the same scenario made me see I wasn’t going to get different results. So mostly fighting or arguing are what makes me anxious because I’ve had to calm my soul down for always having to fight to stand my ground. -Snicxx