Change Negative for Positive

Family is a hard pill for me to swallow ; so much happened to me as a child that I’m reaping the consequences now, still to this day, but nothing I haven’t identified and handled for my own. As for family… hmm. I know what a family should look like and I’ve lived with many of my friends to know that you never know what happens behind closed doors. I’ve seen some wild things in my 32 years of being here, I heard some weird things that just aren’t heard of in todays society.

Dreams of it, but don’t for see it happening anytime in the near future.

I know what will happen though and that’s my children coming back to me, I refuse to have another year of the same nonsense I’ve been trying to maintain for the time being: I’m very open and I’ve been force to shut down my feelings my emotions and everything above. I’ve had to silence my ego as well as my alter ego. 🫥 resorting to family is like asking someone that wants to destroy you and leaving you high and dry, so yes things look differently on that side of then line. I wish I could say I had a family that was like that and I use to until everything started crumbling underneath me, parents, kids, everything that was family was gone. Over something that so far fetch it’s impossible to see the light hit I’m digging deeper and deeper and I’m seeing that there’s a possibility that I’ll have my family back but it will just be my children. and being the two youngest. My teen thinks everything is so funny if consist of hurting her mother in any form possible, meaning she doesn’t like her feelings hurt. She reacts on implausible ideas and thinks she’s better then her mother. I don’t know what’s going on with teen’s today but it’s not a competition about who’s better, we should all be equal. I raised a better child then the way she acts, so sorry I’m venting again. But at least maybe someone else could see either they have it better then others. We all in the same game just battling different levels. Thank you for all your support!!