Change Negative for Positive

I can say after 32 years about to be 33 years now I never understood what parenthood was about until I realized my teen was about to go full force with all the drama and fun filled years of high school brings you. Well my parents are 2 people that admire,and will always for all the shit they’ve put up with, not just from me but my children. I mean I was madder then hell that they did me so wrong when I was in a dark place, but it was for the best. That way the kids didn’t see a side of me that was very very dark. Im beyond grateful for. Because I believe my kids wouldn’t have looked at me the same. Also, my 9th grade special education teacher Mrs. Hannigan, she was amazing,she use to take cherish when she was a baby because I was a sophomore in high school when I had her, and Mrs Hannigan would help watch her while I was in school. I had an army helping me with her. Which has is disadvantages but the positive side of things you see who’s there for you and who isn’t. When my daughter sperm donor went to jail after my dad caught sight of what I looked like after having a loaded gun to my head. Asking me if I was feeling lucky that day, it was a very very bad situation. He was a very bad person. That treated his women like shit.. my dad pressed charges after I climbed out a 2 story bed room window with my face swallon shut on one side and other side getting there and a fat lip. Yeah, so this totally is why I admire my father. And Mrs hannigan. Without them and my mom I wouldn’t have been able to do it. I can truly say now thank you, as I come back to the human being I’m suppose to be and not in a dark place. I know that my ex husband Tim Hale( RIP my love 💞) anyways, I admired this man more then life itself, adored the ground he walked on. He made me the women I am today and I’m proud of it know matter anyone has to say about my downfalls. We all have to have a downfall in order to move forward and see that once you make it from the bottom stay pushing forward and don’t go back to old ways just because they present themselves to you. Always giving you the tools, to destroy yourself. As Tupac moms said. Because today  that’s all they seem to want is for us to destroy ourselves with the tools the present to us.

Lil baby quotes “the system is wicked we just have to learn how to pick em.”

Thank you guys! For all your love and support